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New Journal.. ^.^ [04 Nov 2005|10:11pm]
[ mood | clueless in an understatement ]

Hey peoples...
Welp I got a new journal so thats why I havent been updating much lately..
So if you still want to read my pointless ramblings.. add my new journal and I'll add you back..maybe.

x___bangxcore (x _ _ _ b a n g x c o r e) lmao..

Welp...Till then..

*Just Forget me, Its that Simple*

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Dun Dun Dun.... [26 Jul 2005|12:50pm]
[ mood | I will get them back ]

Im admitting I got fooled...
Shew and I am P/Oed...Grrrr!! Carly and Erica got me..haha..Not laughing.
But shew- It was a good prake but they made me cry :(..Okay for all of you who does not know Erica and Carly...
The whole RIP Auden and Skyler
Was fake..There never was and Auden and Skyler..Here is the story

1. They acting like Auden and Skyler for some months
2. They started a love tragic suicide story
3. THey emailed me today telling me..
4. Be expecting to see missing people Erica and Carly on the news soon.

Okay yeah haha its over and I am madd..They thought I would laugh..But ergh I am not laughing..8|..So All there is to do now..IS GET THEM BACK..but how?

Okay...Anyways now for the journal...
I am bored...Going Swimming later on and...Ummm...I might be getting a sexy FRINGE ..yeeeaaahhh...Awesome.So yuppers thats it..and Ergh I cant believe they got me...I guess thats what you get for having Idiots for friends...

RIP Erica and Carly...Look for the date on the News..
I will get them back!!

<3 //Steph

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RIP Auden and Skyler [24 Jul 2005|07:45pm]
[ mood | Kill me so I can be with them ]

Some pictures inspired by:
1.Auden and Sklyer
2.My new hair

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Now pictures of Auden and Skyler..

!!Cutest Couple!!

*Notice the Heart on SKylers Cheek*

...Skyler and Auden 1988-2005
They risked it all for Love..
Rembered forever through our hearts.
Rest In Peice

<3 //Steph
*Wearing her Heart on her Cheek*

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Omg [22 Jul 2005|11:59am]
[ mood | R.I.P Auden and Skyler ]

Omg PLEASE everyone who reads this click on the link... I am crying right now I sware to God I just read it and I can barely see from all the tears...Please


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R.I.P Auden and Skyler July 20th 2005...The most beautiful people you could ever know

Please paste this in your journals too..Spread the word about the Romeo and Juliet Story...The True one

THanks you guys sooo much,
<3 //Steph
Risking it all for love

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Bored so I am updating ... [19 Jul 2005|07:27pm]
[ mood | Im..madd ]

Nothing much to say..I usually would update lyrics but I dont know what to put...So here are some pictures!! Yeah....

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Shew.. [18 Jul 2005|12:14pm]
[ mood | Haha..I like this one ]

Anyways I am at Aunt Renee's working..and thought I would update...I love Dad aww he is SOOO funny..Me and him are going to see Charlie and The Chocolate Factory..Its me Whitney and Sierra and I guess Ashley M. and Daddy..aww he complains about a house hold dominated by "females" haha imagine..lol yeaaah. Anyways I talked to Josh yesturday he was telling me about how my Sister told him that I told her that I kissed him and everything..Ergh why does she do that. I dont know... Well yeah I am tired of them all..Mom and her..I really really dont want to live in NC..I hate it there..It is basically like a Polar Bear in Hell...It just isnt suppose to happen..So yeah I guess I will be forced to..Ergh..Im like a freaking doll to them..They only use me for their amusement..and it is always against my will..Mmm..That fruit and wallnut salad from McDonald's is good..lol..Yummy..I am eating it now..:D haha..Okay back on subject I ask Dad daily "Please dont let Mom take me..Lets kill her" haha jk. Soo yeah my braces are getting stuck to my lips and gums and whatever so I am going to go break out the wax and stick it on there.. So I can look more like a dork..

Bye bye
<3 //Steph

*House Dominated by Females*

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Back in Black...and Pink [16 Jul 2005|09:26pm]
[ mood | Mothers&sisters Suck ]

Hiiiiiiidie Hoooo,
Welp I am back in Virginia and LOVING every second of it..My Mother is trying to make me move back to NC and I DOOOO NOOT want to..I cried every single night I was there...I dont want to move..and my sister is making it worse..Ugh they ruin my life..As soon as I got into NC I felt all these old memories rush back..and I was getting a horrible head-ache..ergh I wish I was 18...I can not stand it...Dad wont get custody of me because he wants to avoid a fight with Mom so ergh..Divorced parents SUCK..soo yup..I got braces!! Yay kinda.. The spacers HURT SOOO BAD..Omg they gave me migranes...Stupid ruber bands..The bands on the brackets are pink and black lmao..Yeah thats me.. But I need to talk to my friends some more..If I do move to NC (it will be against my will if I do) then I want to stay in touch with them..Because my friends down here are AWESOME!! I luff them all...Anyways I am going to cruise the net since Dad got a new Dell and it is like super duper fast!!

Shout out to all my Peeps...You know who you all are...I luff you guys..

<3 //Steph

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Aunt Angie is awesome... [09 Jul 2005|04:58pm]
[ mood | finding the peace ]

Hey I am bored and Aunt Angie is spoiling me...and I am bored so here are some lyrics...

A decade ago
I never thought I would be
At twenty three
On the verge of spontaneous combustion
But I guess that it comes With the territory
An ominous landscape of never ending calamity
I need you to hear
I need you to see
That I have had all I can take
And exploding seems like
A definite possibility to me

So pardon me while I burst into flames
I've had enough of the world
And it's people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn
And rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me
I'll never be the same

Not two days ago
I was having a look
In a book and I saw a picture of a guy fried up above his knees
I said, "I can relate,"
Cause' lately I've been thinking of combustication as a welcomed vacation from
The burdens of the planet earth
Like gravity, hypocrisy, and the perils of being in 3-D
And thinking so much differently

So pardon me while I burst into flames
I've had enough of the world
And it's people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn
And rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me
I'll never be the same

lie to me

Aunt Angie's work... [08 Jul 2005|04:56pm]
[ mood | content ]

Welp I am at Aunt Angies work on her laptop thing I was on her "black berry"but it took to much work of the fingers so I decided to get on this thing and update..Anyways I am in North Carolina and I am having some what fun...It is all in all...I miss Dad like crazy I cried when he dropped me off..I am such a Daddy's baby...and anyways I am going to work for Aunt Angie do some secretary things and she is going to pay me I told her no but she insists so I guess I will take the money..Dont get me wrong I LOOOOVE money maybe a little to much lol... Anyways I am getting Braces this thursday...See it was suppose to be yesturday but Mom had a little confusion problem so I came down here a week before time and all so I am mad and bitter about it I would much rather be with Dad right about now..But I think I can get over it because I am drinking starbucks right now...MMMM..starbucks..Aunt Angie is spoiling me...haha and I think I am begining to like it...Hmm anyways I MISS DAD!! I miss me and him and george hanging out together and doing that stupid stuff all the time...I hope I will be able to see him *tears* Thats it for now...bye byes

<3 //Steph

"I am such a Daddy's baby..."

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Bored.... [05 Jul 2005|03:02pm]
[ mood | Two seconds alone with him.... ]

I am at the Pawn Shop again and still yet amazed by the speed of this stupid thing..Anyways I went to Jonesville park for the forth of July and I seen the HOTTEST guy there....He was my type..EMO EMO EMO...He had the long-ish black hair that went in his face and he had the lip ring and skater shoes.. Haha...I sware if Dad wasnt there...*drools* lmao..Haha anyways so yeah he was walking in front of us and yes I'll admit I was looking at his butt *grins*...Yeah so anyways I was getting mad because it was burning up and I was sweating and my hair was getting curly and my make-up was smudging.. So everytime I could I punched Dad and he got mad..lol..But it was worth it I guess..Anyways I am going to work on my layouts some I am getting bored of this one...Hmm..Bye bye

<3 //Steph

*He was my type..EMO EMO EMO...*

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Wow...this computer is F.A.S.T!! [01 Jul 2005|10:03am]
[ mood | dont move.They wont see me. ]

Well...I am at the Pawn Shop helping out Aunt Renee and thought I would update my journal...Haha...I clicked the button to update and then set in my seat looking out the window to let the page load..haha...WOW it's so fast!! Haha I almost fell out of my seat from the excite-ment.I am so use to Moms slow computer...But I better not tell Dad cause then he will start coming over here...He is such a loser...I wake up in the mornings and go over to Moms to get dad and make him take me to ride 4-wheelers..Omg I was ridding it yesturday...haha I almost ran off a cliff thing..haha..I ment to push the brake but instead I pushed the gas..but shhh dont tell..Anyways no one would let me ride them so I just put Sugar and the little Weenie Dog (speckles) in the back seat..lol...So they kept trying to jump off so I just let them off and then they started chasing me!Haha I was scared I was gonna hit one of them lol...and then I pictured Dad in my head screaming "Stephanie!! Slow down!!...Ugh..I hate it when this happens!"..So I am going like 30 mph up a hill with trees and dogs everywhere laughing.I bet I looked like an idiot. haha So it was fun..I plan on after the Pawn Shop closes and Aunt Renee goes to the lake Dad and me and suppose to go camping and stuff...We have a Canoo (sp) to go fishing and stuff.HAHA..Speaking of fishing I went the other day and It was my first time ever going..I beat my dad and grandfather at it. Haha I go so many fish and I was freaking out because I thought they was going to die..So I was basically slapping dad in the face with a fish screaming...Hurry get it off it'll die..and if it dies..you die !! >:| haha and I caught a Bass..yay..That was fun.Shew now I REALLY feel like a Red-neck. When I beat up on Dad now he calls me a Red-neck baby..So that makes me even more mad and I hit him in the gut..lol..But I have alot to say..Anyways so now me and Dad enjoy being around Papaw Eddie because he is so funny and stupid..George like attacks him and he sticks out his fist like the white pride people and says "Hill Boy"..haha and George just like jumps on him and then walks away...haha and he is SOOO funny when he is drunk (all the time) So me a dad use him being drunk and us watching after him as an excuse to listen to how stupid he is..When he is sober I yell at him sometimes because he stinks and is giving me lung cancer..Ohh and he had the nerv to tell me to save myself for the "right one" haha omg..I started laughing and looked at him and said.."Its to late for that" he laughed and said "Oh is it"...Haha I still havent told him I was just joking so now he thinks Im a 13 year old whore person lmao..So yeah I guess thats all I have to say..for now..But I will update later when I feel like it or have nothing else/better to do...

<3 //Steph

*Time Doesnt heal wounds..It only make more*

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Here are some Lyrics.... [23 Jun 2005|11:42am]
[ mood | nothing ]

I have nothing much to say so I am just going to drop off some lyrics...

As I recall with my stomach turning
I was hiding away from myself, away from you
Like nothing, though something was terribly wrong
And I admit that I was only waiting for the right time
Night time, the right moment for you to look away
Though you never did, I pretended for a while
So I could walk where I don't belong

And I remember every word you said
Come back in time, come back
And I remember I would soon be dead
Now so pitiful, so pitiful

But I know as I hammered those nails into your beautiful hands
Your eyes still try to search for mine, but I look away
Now your eyes are the only thing that can save me
I'm still afraid of them piercing
You're breaking into my prison
Just pretended for a while
My soul is dying
I won't look away

And I remember every word you said...

I'll remember every word you said
This time I won't look away

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Fixed my Journal.... [06 Jun 2005|05:16am]
[ mood | My Journal is sexy!! ]

Okay it is 5:22 and I fixed my Journal...I dont know if I am completely happy with it right now...But it is good enough..I had to Change EVERYTHING all of the pics on the background was seperate and I had to put them together and the rose was yellow and the senses fail logo was white and the senses fail band picture was yellow green black blue brown white(a whole bunch of colors) So I faded the background to black and highlighted it with pink!!I know I am rambling on about it but I feel soooo accomplished!! Haha anyways I am about to go to bed I will update today...haha...


I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow.You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I dont want to go home right now.When all I can taste is this moment,and all I can breathe is your life. Then sooner or later its over,I just dont want to miss you tonight.I dont want the world to see me cause I dont think that they'd understand.When everything is ment to be broken I just want you to know who I am..And you cant fight the tears that aint coming.All the moments of truth in your lies WHEN EVERYTHING FEELS LIKE THE MOVIES...YEAH...YOU BLEED JUST TO KNOW YOU'RE ALIVE...

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Sooooo EmO...I am... [01 Jun 2005|05:18pm]
[ mood | I got awesome icons you dont.. ]

Anyways I was looking up icons....YES!!...I found soooo many emo icons.I found a bunch..So I added the website to favorites.HAha...I have soo many.I got excited.Anyways I am thinking about starting to go to a tanning bed cause everytime I lay out in the sun I either get sun burned or someone throws water on me and I get sick from it.So I am about to give up...Omg I am so emo..Haha..and I love it.I was punk then goth then punk and now emo..and I am happy now..I want to die my hair black and put a bright pink strand in it.But I My Sister will never take me to get any hair dye.I cant find any pink hair dye though...Shew..I might end up having to order some off of the internet.Muwhaha..Doubt it.But ahh well...I wish I had a cool sister that would buy this stuff for me instead of buying me preppy stuff..hmm.Gosh I hope I can get some hair dye.Brandon my cousin was over here and me and him got into an arguement..haha and he broke my guitar string. Like an idiot..I cant stand him sometimes.Welp I thought I would update....Yellow card's music puts me to sleep...haha...Anyways have a nice one *wink*.....


Behind these eyes..Is something I despise..Something so distorted..You thought it was aborted..I keep it locked away..Until that special day..When it becomes un-hidden..Even though it is forbidden..Let you have a peek..For answers is what you seek..For why I am so broken..Even though I resemble a token..Now its time..To lock away this sin..Never to show itself again

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*I miss my friends*......hmmm [31 May 2005|05:49pm]
[ mood | icky ]

Anyways..About the last entry..I am over it.I relized that I didnt like Josh in that way,haha..And today Brandon Sexton was listening to me talk to my sister on the phone and we was talking about Josh and Brandon and Dad...He said I thought you both decided you wasnt talking to him...he said it like a smart-butt..So I looked at him in the meanest look and said.,..No we are talking to him.So he said"By God no youre not you are going to get him in trouble..Youre 13 he is 19" I looked him dead in the eye and said "HE cant get in trouble for just talking to me...only if I fuck him...Did I fuck him Brandon?HUh!!Did I say I fucked him?NO I didnt fuck him..I didnt fuck him BRandon so He CANT get in trouble" HE looked at me and THOUGHT he had the balls to say watch your mouth...He can cuss but I cant?..Hmm he is going to make SOME weird preacher..I hope he goes to hell...Anyways Jonisa and Brandon broke up so now I think her and Josh might date...I hope so cause if they dont then Josh is moving to Atlanta...:(....So anyways I Know how to play God called in sick today by Afi on guitar...Thanks to my cousin Christina!!Lately I can hardly get ahold of my guitar to practice because Eddie and BRandon always get my guitars and TRY to play but they both suck nuts..Anyways I just found out Christina went to Moms and I wasnt there...Nooooooooo...That sucks. She is like so awesome...I think if we start hanging out more..She will be my best friend because we like the same things..I re-did my journal...SO press F11 to see the background better....Its taking back sunday..I might change it..Anyways I g2g..Jonisa needs the phone to call Josh...ewww..haha...Till then

Stephanie <3's EmO shiznit....

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Stupid people.... [25 May 2005|11:18pm]
[ mood | Got the flu and I am NOT happy ]

Anyways yup My sister is out with Josh right now..And I would be lieng if I said I'm not hurting right now...But fuck it...If Josh wants to tell me he likes me and wants to hang out with me and then goes and stays out until 11 (they probably fucked) with my sister...He can,its his choices.But fuck them all Jonisa and Josh both are dead to me..I dont care anymore..I hope they both fucking die..I was sitting talking to Mom and I said "I pray to God she is dead"..and mom said be careful what you wish for you will miss her when she is gone..I said"Fuck her..she is dead to me already"..But I feel like an idiot..I let them get the best of me..Now I am just going to stick to my plan. Aviod all of them bitches. Except Brandon because he isnt a bitch and he cant hurt me...Oh yeah Jonisa I know you are reading this..Brandon got another girl..She is WAY prettier than you!! Blonde hair, skinny, and she is taller than you and shorter than Brandon..Yup she is pretty..Probably wont go out on him either..Haha..Yeah well enough of that..I am giving up on this whole deal.No more Jonisa..No more Josh..No more nobody.I am basically going to cut out my heart so I wont feel a damn thing..I wont care for other peoples feelings..Hell people seem to not care about mine so why the hell should I give a fuck about theirs?Thats right I shouldnt..damn it..I am going to be as cold and ruthless as others think me to be.....So i am going to go..Because I said how I feel and how my plans are working out...Hope you like them..Because I know I sure as hell do..I am talking to Josh and I am basically saying fuck you to him..Haha..Yeah he is a good lier 2..ahh welp..I dont care..He can lie his way straight to hell....Fuck Josh...Fuck Jonisa...They are ALL dead to me anyways..Hmm..I hope punk'd is on..lmfao..Bye..Ps..Yes I think Jonisa is a PLAYER...shh dont tell she might get mad..lmfao..I dont give a damn

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Sick and sleepy... [24 May 2005|05:50am]
[ mood | High off of MUSIC biotch ]

Yup well I am sick...Earlier today I felt like dieng...I was in a depressed mood earlier BUT..Then when I started to think about it..I relized there was NOTHING to be sad over..So now I feel better.Anyways I cant sleep I was up watching "All Things Rock" on Mtv and HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS :Ohio Is For Lovers..came on...I set right in front of the Tv turning up the volume and singing.. I sware if mom wasnt knocked up on sleeping pills she would have woke up.. I am surprised she didnt..I love that song it makes me sad but the lead singer is hott when he screams in the mic...lol..I am thinking about getting another Journal on here..Because I cant write ANYTHING in here. Everyone that I dont want to read it reads it..Ex.My mom/sister. So I might get another one..I am still deciding if it is worth it...Ahhhh Well..Anyways I dont think Mom even bought tickets to the GC concert..She tends to lie about these things..So I am not going until I see proof that she bought the tickets...Haha its pretty bad when you have to get proof to believe your own mom huh?..Yeah well if you knew her like I do then you would ask questions too. Anyways...I got out of school last fri. and this year is over 4me..and I am sad for only 1 reason. I wont see Ashley next year...Darn...I am about to go to bed..I just came in here to look up lyrics and all that good stuff..I am going to help Dad paint tomorrow..YES!! I am mad at him though..Lately he has been a "Man-Whore"...Looking at almost anything with boobs...Him being that desperate will lead to trouble..BUT Its his life he can do what he wants until it involves or concerns me...Then I will step in I guess...Anyways I am mad at my sister..I prob. wont talk to her at all for a while..I dont know.. I am just sorta tired of the crap she is doing lately..And she gets Brandon into it and makes him believe COMPLETELY wrong things..She is getting bad about it..I almost felt like calling her a whore..But it isnt my biz.Sope I am staying out of it...No more talking to her..Brandon..Josh...Or anyone else that involves her..So I think for the rest of this summer or what ever I am going to dis-connect from my family..I dont know..Just to have time to think and not worry about their Drama...But I guess it will be hard..Because I mean come on..How are you suppose to live in a house with these people and not say anything to them..It will be hard..I mean I will talk to them..But nothing as in advice or getting into their thoughts/lives..Anyways I think I am out..I will leave ya some lyrics to basically tell you how I feel right now because I cant because it will raise questions that dont need to be raised..Have a BAM day..lmao..I want that shirt..Have fun reading this..

"Loveless Wrists"

Where will I be
When there's pain as far as eyes can see
I'll stand in line for days and nights, for making up lost time
And this is how it feels

So now I cut these loveless wrists
My head sure hurts today I'll take another twenty pills and try to make my troubles go away

So now I cut these loveless wrists
My head sure hurts today I'll take another twenty pills and try to make my troubles go away

I once felt strong
It wouldn't last for long
I wrap my hands around my neck
Kill myself again
Cut my arms with the biggest knife that I can stand

Why waste time
Lifting my head
Keep it down
And save face instead
Why waste time
Lifting my head
Keep it down
Save face instead

I once felt strong
It wouldn't last for long
I wrap my hands around my neck
Kill myself again
Cut my arms with the biggest knife that I can stand

It's more than I can stand

lie to me

Update time... [17 May 2005|02:34pm]
[ mood | hmm..weird ]

Welp nothing much really to say... Besides my sister cracks me up...The other day me and her was talking..and got on the subject of growing and what not..So I was saying how she has grown up..Then she blurts out "Oh I am growing like a 'root'" Haha..she was suppose to say weed instead of root..Haha and me and her went to See Josh at his little work thing..When we got there we was talking about cars and driving normal stuff..So she came out and said "Yeah the other day I swirved so I could miss an 'octapus'" Haha and Josh said "What was you driving a submarein" Haha lol it was funny and before all of that she called a convertable car a "portable" one..Haha...Wow she really is a blonde..and it gets on my nervs how dumb she is at times..Sometimes I think she puts on an act because she USE to be smart before she got with Brandon..Hmm she is weird...Thats it...Besides I saw this HOT HOT goth guy today at Lee High..He was walking somewhere and got off the bus!! Haha sissy said something like there is Stephanie's freaky person..I screamed WHERE WHERE...I turn around in the car and he is staring at me..haha I was blushing and Dad was looking at me like I was weird...So I yelled out the window "Hey baby!" haha and then dad got mad but I DONT CARE he was so hott..He had on a pair of pants that I seen at hot topics..yup yup..Welp This Friday is MY LAST DAY AT SCHOOL!! No more after friday I dont have to take ANY of my Exams!! I amm soooooooooooooo good..But right now I am going to do this thing for Science..I have to do this report-ish thing..Welp byes

Stephanie...:D :D :D

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***Ðèp®è$$èd £îkè Wºåh*** [11 May 2005|04:32am]
[ mood | Wishing for Death ]

"**WARNING**:This person is 'CURRENTLY' in a Depressed §tate..You've been warned..."

Hmm..Well I am depressed right now..Its 4:35am and I knew I would..Because I am always depressed at night. I dont know if it because I am sleepy or just §tupid like that.. Anyways Onward to the good stuff and questions... Haven't you ever noticed when you find "something" good it always seems to Vani§h? I do..I never really thought about it until now..I was looking up H.I.M music and a song of his made me think.."What the Hell"..Not to long ago..I told this Guy I use to love alot that Me and Him was over..and I thought it would be for the best..But I cant stop thinking about him..Or well the old him..He changed but the old him I really fell in love with and I cant forget it..He said he will always love me but I dont know. He changed so much. I seem to falling more and more apart from him. We are just friends I mean, but He seems so different.Not the same Kyle I knew. No one understand. I dont tell anyone because no on cares.But it has been eating me up.I was thinking about him today.So I started to look at pics I had of him. I couldnt help it..I went to my room and started crying. I dont want him back. It is just I dont want to loose him completely. Even if he is just a friend I want to still stay connected with him.So I try. But the more I talk to him, the more I fall apart. I wish I could be with him sometimes, but I dont want it.Because I have Zach and he makes me happy..Shew GOD DAMN BRAIN!!I am about this much (---)from blowing out my brains! The thoughts rushing through my head are so confusing..They scream things out to me and I cant understand them..Hmm I wish when I was born someone would have told me how much this life sucks and is confusing..Because I would have killed myself Early that way I couldnt leave a scar on anything or anyone.I wish so bad that I still had my Grandmaw here..I would give my entire world just to be with her now..I talked to her when I was a kid. People think I am to young to remember her but I do..plain as day..She was the only one who would take up for me..Why did she have to die?!?!?!?..The sad thing is..I think she wanted to die..But at that age I was "to young" to understand..I just would kill to tell her now.."I miss you more than I could show"...The tears for her are endless..No one sees them because no one would understand..People talk about her death like it was just "another" death...But her death was the thing that made me how I am...Empty and hidden..I dont expect to have her back..Only in my dreams I guess...but She will NEVER be just another death to me..She was/is the only person who understood or will understand me!! I g2g mom is being a hooker...I will try to update more someother time!!! Love always.....§tephanie

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Get to know me a Little Better!!!! muwhahaah [09 May 2005|05:43pm]
[ mood | Im good..I finished ]

Long Survey About Yourself

Created by bleedwithoutreason and taken 27585 times on bzoink!

What time are you starting this?4:30 pm
Date of birth?March 17,1992
Eye color?blue
Where were you born?Johnson City, TN
Number of candles on your last birthday cake?13
Pets?bunches...mostly dogs
Hair color?Purple now...naturally brownish blonde
Town you live in?Hick-Ville USA
Favorite foods?umm..french fries
Ever been to Africa?No, Been to Mexico though
Been toilet papering?No, I wish
Love someone so much it made you cry?Many a times
Been in a car accident?In a way, I was un-born at the time
Croutons or bacon bits?Croutons
Favorite day of the week?Friday...Party!!
Favorite resturant?Olive Garden
Favorite flower?Rose
Favorite sport to watch?Skateboarding
Favorite drink?Code Red Mountain Dew
Favorite ice cream flavor?Chocolate
Warner Bros. or Disney?Warner..Duh
Favorite fast food restuarant?umm..Pals
Carpet color in your bedroom?White
How many times did you fail your driver's test?None..havent taken it yet..
Whom did you get your last email from?John..Guy from West VA
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?HOT TOPIC!!!!!DUH
What do you do most often when you are bored?On the Net,listen to music
Most annoying thing to say to me?call me babe..I hate when guys do that
Bedtime?I dont have one
Favorite TV show?anyshow on Fuse
Last person you went out to dinner with?:My mom, sister,and Brandon
Been out of country?yeah, twice
Believe in magick?Ofcourse...like woah
Ford or Chevy?Ford...mustang
What are you listening to right now?Senses Fail: Buried A Lie
Have you ever failed a grade?Nope...Im just smart like that
If you have, what grade did you fail?Never did
Do you have a crush on someone?Yeah..
Do you have a bf/gf?Yes
If so, what is their name?Zachary Tate Willard
How long have you been together?Umm..since Feb. 28 05(I think)
What are you wearing right now?blue jeans,and BLACK hurley shirt
Would you have sex before marriage?Depends..but currently..no
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?No..I do on my Dentist though...shhh
Are you a virgin?Yes..
Do you smoke?Use to but I quit like a good person
Do you drink?When I can...but not addicted
Are you ghetto?Maybe.....no
Are you a player?Hells yeah..not..no
What are your favorite colors?Blue, Black
What is your favorite animal?Tiger
Do you have any birthmarks?Yeah on my shoulder
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?Nope...Im good like that
Who do you talk to most on the phone?Ashley M. and Zach W.
Have you ever been slapped?By my mom..once
Do you get online a lot?Yes
Are you shy or outgoing?Both...depends on the person and situation
Do you shower?No...lol...maybe*sniffs*
Do you hate school?Yes...who doesnt
Do you have a social life?Yes..but I keep it on the DL
How easily do you trust people?Not easy..Depends
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?Yes..No one will ever know
Would you ever sky dive?Hell yeah
Do you like to dance?Depends..
Have you ever been out of state?Yes...Many a Times
Do you like to travel?YEAH!!!..Its the only time Im w/ family
Have you ever been expelled from school?No...Imma Angle
Have you ever been suspended from school?Yeah..3 days for fighting
Do you want to get out of your hometown?Hell yeah...Just not until Im 21
Are you spoiled?Yes..but not a Brat
Are you a brat?No..I am nice and not a jerk
Have you ever been dumped?No...
Have you ever gotten high?Yes once..DRUGS ARE STUPID
Do you like snapple?Yes...Its my alcohol
Do you drink a lot of water?No..its gross
What toothpaste do you use?Umm..Crest and some vanilla mint kind
Do you have a cell phone?Yes..but its in Florida!!
Do you have a curfew?No...Just as long as they know where I am
Who do you look up to?My cousin
Are you a role model?Yeah in a way and No in a way
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?Six Flags
What name brand do you wear the most?Flipp and Hurley
What kind of jewelry do you wear?Black Sex braclets, mood rings, and a cross
What do you want pierced?My lip..I did it myself once...Stupid parents
Do you like takin pictures?Yes..I want to be a photographer
Do you like gettin your picture taken?No...but it seems to happen
Do you have a tan?Yes..well ½ tan and ½ sunburn
Do you get annoyed easily?yes...only with fakes or preps
Have you ever started a rumor?No..*cough cough*
Do you have your own phone or phone line?I use to..but phone bill was to high
Do you have your own pool?Yes....Public poos are nastty
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?Umm..panties...YUMM..lol jk
Do you have any siblings?unfortunately
Have you ever been played?Nope...Someone tried to but I dumped them
Have you ever played anyone?Yeah kinda..when I was lil
Do you get along with your parents?Not my mom..She sucks ..My dad hell ya
How do you vent your anger?Music and journal
Have you ever ran away?Yes
Have you ever been fired from a job?Nope...I only had 2..good 4 me
Do you even have a job?Not now
Do you daydream a lot?Yeah..about living on my own
Do you have a lot of ex's?Yeah
Do you run your mouth?No..people who run their mouth have nothing to say
What do you want a tattoo of?A band.. only one tatt though
What do you have a tattoo of?None...
What does your ex bf/gf look like?Black hair, green eyes, and tall..i dunno
What does your most recent crush look like?Goth-ish
Whats her/his name?Roger
Have you ever been bitched out?No..I dunno what it is lol
Are you rude?No..Unless I feel it is necessary
What was the last compliment you recieved?dude from Cali."You are worth my life"
Do you like getting dirty?Depends on wich kind of dirrty..lol
Are you flexiable?I can be..HAHA..jk
What is your heritage?German and Irish
What is your lucky number?16
What does your hair look like right now?Its purple with faded streaks through it
Could you ever be a vegetarian?I use to be
Describe your looks?emoish, gothish, punkish, skaterish Imma mix
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?BLACK BLACK BLACK
Would you ever date someone younger than you?no..I did..but it was because he was hot
Would you ever date someone older than you?Yes..I usually do
When was the last time you were drunk?Umm..Last Summer
How many rings until you answer the phone?Three or two
Have you ever been skinny dipping?yes like 3 times
If yes, when was the last time?last summer
When was the last time you went on a date?Umm begining of school..With NATHAN!!
Do you look more like your mother or father?My mom..but I hate her
Do you cry a lot?Yes..alot alot..Im EMO!!!
Do you ever cry to get your way?No....I did once when I was lil..but that was it
What phrase do you use most when on the phone?dont have one
Are you the romantic type?Hell yeah..
Have you ever been chased by cops?Yeah once..lol..nothing big
What do you like most about your body?my boobs..lol
What do you like least about your body?my scars
When did you have your first crush?2nd grade..Mathew G.
When was the last time you threw up?Umm a while ago
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?Black heads
Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?Sometimes..but not like a hooker
What about cleavage?yeah sometimes
Is your best friend a virgin?no..
Have you ever fucked someone up?Yeah once
Have you ever been fucked up?no
What theme does your room have?Stars and moons..and punk posters
What size show do you wear?Show I dunno shoe I wear 7 or 8
What is your screen name on AIM?sg5462695
How are you feeling right now?depressed and thirsty
When was the last time you were at a party?last weekend
Have you ever given a lapdance?as a joke once
Have you ever recieved one?as a joke a couple of times
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?no..
What is one of your bad qualilties?I judge people sometimes
What is one of your good qualilties?I can listen
Would you marry for money?No...never
What do you drive?Nothing
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?DADDY'S kid for sure
Well?uh huh
When was the last time you cried in school?Last year
Would you ever hook up with the same sex?No...
What kind of music do you like?EMO!!,punk,rock, metal, EMO EMO EMO EMO
Would you ever bungee jump?I have once at Carowinds
What is your worst fear?spiders!!
Would you ever join the army?No
Do you like cows?Yes...I LOVE THEM..jk lmao
If you were to die today, what would you do?Get my lip peirced lol
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?remember
Do you like to party?at times
Hearts or broken hearts?broken hearts
Moons or stars?moon
Coke or pepsi?coke
Favorite scent?strawberries
Would you ever dye your hair red?Yeah..If I feel like it
How many languages can you speak?Two...pig latin is one of them LMAO
What time are you finishing this?5:36

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